Is such a big deal?

Last week in German me and a friend were talking about and when she lost hers. 15. When I said I was a virgin and was waiting she said that was sweet. I always wanted to wait for love, I saw as special and I could get a one nighter any time I wanted, but I'd rather it meant something.I hae a little niggle that says I would be upset if I wasn't in a relationship with the girl, I don't know why. But she isn't with that guy anymore and she doesn't regret it. Maybe I wouldn't? Then Yesterday in Social Studies me and two girls were talking about and they both lost theirs at 15 too and didn't regret it, and said it was stupid to wait because it's just , and not something to be such a over. My future wife wouldn't care if I was a virgin or not and at least I could get some practice. That sort of threw me, they were right, but I am quite a sweet guy and I can't help but think that if I never saw the girl who took my virginity again I would be heartbroken. Then today in Drama cl me and the group (5 girls) were saying how they were ragging some virgin lad. They all lost theirs at 15 as well and when I said I was a virgin they laughed a bit and when I said I was waiting they said 'well that's cute.' I can't help but feel old fashioned, it is only after all. I only live once and I should enjoy my life while I can. Also a close friend recently lost his and said it wasn't a big deal and often rags me for being a virgin. I could get sex if I wanted, a one nighter, and who knows, maybe I'd enjoy it? I've got too much pressure with exams then college to have time for a relationship right now anyway. Thing is I don't masturbate, and emotionless sex is basically masturbation. I aren't doing this to fit in, but most people are having sex so why shouldn't I? I'm missing out! I also said to the girls I don't want to pay a prostitute because then they wouldn't be sleeping with me because they liked me. I suppose what really hurts is that nobody wants to sleep with me, unlike them. This got a reply of 'Awww, that's so sweet, you're so nice'. Great, now they pity me. Thing is on a one night stand would the girl really like me? Maybe a bit but what I really wanted was the sort of like you get from a relationship, which I can't get. I dunno what to do. If I wait then I miss out on something everyone else I know is enjoying and I'll feel like a loser, but if I don't I might feel used and regret it, but maybe I wouldn't. Is my opnion so old fashioned? I mean what difference does it make if when I fall in love whether I'm a virgin or not, is it such a big deal to 'save yourself'? I mean I might be waiting for love for another 10 or 20 years, 20 sexless years. I could have sex tomorrow, should I? It would be great to go to school and say 'Hey lads, guess what I'e done' and talk about sex with the girls. Plus it would boost my confidence and what the hell makes the first time so important? I'm in such a mess, what should I do?